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Back to school...

Tuesday

August 29, 2007

Hi,

Well, Big Brother caught me and my access to the internet has been tweaked.  Typepad has been blocked (among others), so I can no longer write my entries during lunch.  I'm writing this in Word and will email it to myself, then cut and paste it into Typepad from home.  This way, I can still write during lunch.  Sigh…

School is back in session. Where did the summer go?  I wasn’t sure if it was today or tomorrow, but the heart jumping noise above my head before 6:00 a.m. was all the proof I needed that TODAY is the first day of school.

Justin's bus picks him up at the ungodly hour of 6:35 or so, which means he's up a bit before 6:00 to get ready.  Ashley leaves around the same time to go to her bus stop.  So, my summer hours are over now too. J 

The second sign that summer is over is the removal of the pool from the back yard.  I brought a bag of trash out to my barrel yesterday and saw that it was more than half deflated.  This morning, there's only the big circle of dead grass to remind us of it being there to begin with.  Wonder where all of that water went?  I should check the basement tonight!!!

And, last…but hardly least, is the slow commute to work now that school buses and kids are everywhere. 

There is more and more color in the foliage, which is bumming me out.  It's too soon!  I missed the lunar eclipse…rats!  I really wanted to see it, but completely forgot it was happening last night.

I went to the movies last night to see Mr. Bean's Holiday .  How that man can make people laugh without every saying a word is amazing.  It's a funny movie…

A long weekend coming up!  I plan to do some housework on Saturday, but spend most of the weekend doing what I love … NOTHING! J  No, I need to finish my book club book, I want to make some earrings and book marks, I may take a ride to Barnes and Noble on Monday.  Not sure yet.  Tammy might be coming with the kids, so plans will change if she does.

Peace,

Kay

Looooong catch-up...

Tuesday

August 21, 2007

Hello,

As I wrote about a week ago, I will be receiving an unexpected, retroactive check from Happy Heywood today.  I'll be sure to let you know if it's more than $10. :)  My second gift of abundance was a text message from Tammy last night, telling me that the salon sold some of my jewelry and she had $81 for me.

I started to write last week about the 30th anniversary of Elvis Presley's death, but it was depressing the hell out of me, so I stopped.  Oh, not because I was an Elvis fan.  I liked him well enough when I was a kid, but then the Beatles arrived and the rest, as they say, was history.

The reason it was depressing me to talk about Elvis had more to do with my marriage, then his death (sorry, Elvis).  My "was-band" idolized Elvis.  Still does, for that matter.  I began to despise his music after a few years of married life and hearing it now only brings back some very unhappy times.  My ex would come home when the bars closed, put an Elvis album on at rock concert decibels, and weep into his warm beer.  RIP Elvis.

The weather has been fantastic!  Cool, dry, mostly sunny.  It's getting down into the 40's at night though.  Nature, not having a calendar by it's side, only knows it's cold out, so it has prematurely begun to dress in it's autumn finery...about a month early.  I fear another crappy Fall is on the way.

I made a commitment last night.  Yoiks... When I joined the gym in June, I paid for 3 months at their highest rate, figuring that this would be a good trial period.  I admit to having missed going on more evenings than would be weight loss producing, but I blame(d) the weather and well, anything else that sounded feasible.  To be fair, I HAVE had a lot of things going on this summer.  And, the weather WAS a huge hindrance (for me).  I absolutely abhor hot, humid days.  I am a complete slug.  So, during our tropical weeks, I didn't go much. 

Since it's been autumn-like for about a week, I've been more inclined to haul my arse over there.  Guess what?  My 3 months are up.  So, my choices were to continue on a month by month basis at $45/month(where I can quit any time w/out penalty), or commit to a year at $40/month.  My knees started to knock.  My wallet started to hide.  My head started to bounce up and down of it's own accord.  "Of course, I want to save $5 a month.  Who wouldn't?"  :)  So, I signed a contract stating that I am now a "committed" member, and beginning Sept. 17, $40/month is coming out of my checking account for one year whether I go to the gym or not!  So, I've either bought myself an expensive motivator, or I've just pissed away $480.  After she handed me my "contract", I wobbled into the locker room to change my shoes for Body Pump, still wondering what in the hell had just happened! :)

The class was great...however, I was getting a bit irritated with the Barbie in front of me who spent 90% of the class looking at herself in the mirror.  Get over yourself...you're not that pretty.  Godde!

I always leave there red faced and covered in sweat.  As I was walking back to the locker room, I took note of the young girl in front of me.  Whereas I looked like I'd just spent 8 hours at boot camp, she looked no more disheveled than someone who'd just strolled across the street to toss a letter in the mailbox!  HOW is that possible? 

I went to Maine on Saturday, but only to stay with the kids for a few hours.  I left home at 3:30 or so and arrived around 6:00.  Wasn't out of my car more than 10 minutes when Emma, Megan and I headed to the theater in Portland to see Daddy Day Camp (dumb movie).  I was a bit unnerved by the cost of things in the Portland theater, as I am used to what it cost in Gardner.  Even Gardner's prices shock me sometimes. :)  Anyway, it was $22.50 for tickets for 1 adult and 2 kids .  That alone made my jaw drop.  Then Megan asked if they could have popcorn, so we headed over to the concession stand.  I ordered 2 small popcorns and 2 bottles of water.  $15.85!  Are you freakin' kidding me???  I don't understand the need for raping the general public like that.  $3.50 for a bottle of water?  You can buy GALLONS for a buck forcrissake! 

We topped that whole evening off by discovering we'd been locked out of the house.  Lovely.  Megan thinks I should break a window..."they deserve that for locking us out".  Emma would like me to use a chainsaw to cut down the door.  I made a couple of phone calls to Tammy, letting her know of our situation.  She suggested that we take the ladder from the garage and Emma can climb in through a window.  Problem was, only one window was open and she was afraid of the slant of the roof, not to mention it was a tiny, crank out window that I don't think she could have gotten through anyway.  The 3 of us tromped around the house in the dark, lugging the ladder and looking for a way in.  We all had to use the bathroom...the girls were squeamish about the darkness and my temperature was rising at an alarming rate.  I finally discovered a narrow window at the end of the porch was open about 6".  However, I couldn't get the screen off no matter how much I prodded and wiggled.  I went into the garage, grabbed a long nail and poked a hole in the screen near the latch so I could release it.  FINALLY!  Emma and Megan (who didn't need to crawl in the window too, but what 10 year old can resist that novelty?) got in the house and unlocked the door for me. 

I still needed to close the garage door, so back outside I went.  I couldn't reach it to pull it down.  I stood there staring at it for a minute before I completely blew.   Swearing like a drill sargent, I went off in search of the smaller step ladder we'd left somewhere in the yard, dragged it back to the garage and closed the door.  I looked over at the girls, who were staring at me like I had 3 heads, and told them to go and get ready for bed.  They turned and flew up the stairs.

I met them in Emma's room a few minutes later and we all just cracked up!  They changed and we headed down to the living room to watch a little t.v. and unwind from our adventure.  They asked for snacks.  Emma chose cereal (of course) but Megan wanted tomato soup.  Em got her a can, but it's not Campbell's.  She decides to try it anyway.  I can't work the friggin' can opener.  It's the kind that crimps around the edge instead of cutting, so that you don't sever a finger with the lid.  The 3 of us fidget with it for a few minutes, until I'm ready to throw it through the fish tank.  I finally figure it out, open the can and heat it up.  Megan hates it and asks if she can have something else instead.  Sigh...  I offer toast.  She doesn't like the looks of the bread (it's 12 grain), sniffs it and shrugs.  Okay, she'll try it.  I can't get the toaster to work.  Again, my temperature is starting to rise.  I push down both levers.  They won't stay down.  I HOLD down the lever.  It won't heat up.  Megan suggests the toaster oven.  I put the bread in there and start pushing buttons.  Nothing.  I switch the plugs around.  Still nothing.  Is that plug dead, I wonder?  I don't know.  I ask her if she just wants a peanut butter and jelly sandwich instead.  The peanut butter is foreign.  It's not Jiffy or Peter Pan.  It's organic and it smells funny.  That would be a big no on the PB&J.  I ask if she would like some Cheddar Bunnies.  What are those?  They are the organic version of Goldfish.  I get a wrinkled nose in reply.  So, I tell her that her options are cereal (also organic and containing no pink hearts, green shamrocks or blue moons), or a granola bar... she declines.  She goes without a snack into the t.v. room to watch Hannah Montana with Emma.  I take one look at what just happened in the kitchen, and decide to watch Hannah Montana too.

We climbed up to bed around 11:00.  I'm praying that they are dead tired...they are wound up tighter than a watch spring.  Megan begins to jump on the bed.  Ah...nope, don't think so.  Let's play the silence game.  First one to talk or laugh loses.  I shut off the lights and get them settled, but they don't want me to leave, so I sprawl across the foot of the bed with their legs on top of me.  Soon, the whispering stops and I drift off to la la land.  Woke up around 1:00 and headed to the bathroom.  Saw Tammy's car in the driveway, so I went down to the guest room and sprawled out on the bed.

As soon as I opened my eyes on Sunday morning, I wrote them a note and headed home.  I pulled up in front of my house before 10:00 a.m. and had the whole day to myself!  Did some laundry, sat on the deck and read my book club book, worked on my cross stitch project, made a book mark each for Dawn, Justin, Destinie and Ashley.  I also watched Elizabeth I with Helen Mirren.  Great movie.   Makes me want to read more about her now.

Anyway, that's what's been going on with me.  Tomorrow, The Upstairs Folks are leaving for NY.  Dawn is bringing Destinie home and they are all staying for 5 days.  Yeehawwww...  Peace and quiet at last.

Peace,
Kay

Believe it or not...

Monday

August 13, 2007

Hi,

Yesterday was the new moon, so I hope you all remembered to write out your ABUNDANCE CHECKS!  Luckily, I got a reminder around 9:30 last night and wrote mine out right then and there.

This morning, my manager handed me an envelope.  Inside was a letter from Administration.  The Dept of Labor had done an audit on our payroll process some time back and made a suggestion about changing the "window" of allowed time to punch before we are late, or considered to be on overtime.  Because of this audit, our payroll dept was required to assess 2 years worth of punches on EVERY employee.  That must have been quite the task.   Glad it wasn't me.

The good news, on the heels of my ABUNDANCE check, is that I will be getting a check for overtime punches, retro back 2 years.  :)  Thank you, Universe, for this little bonus.

It won't be a lot of money.  I don't stay later than I need to and they have to deduct taxes and my pension, so...it may not be more than a few bucks.  In fact, it may be pennies.  But, nevertheless, it is unexpected money in my hands. :)

A friend, and former co-worker, was recently diagnosed with breast cancer.  Please toss Laura and her family in your prayer bucket this week.  She has a long road ahead of her.

Over and out...

Peace,

Kay

My "Lazy" Weekend...

Sunday

August 12, 2007

Hi,

It's Sunday morning and I haven't left the house (except to sit on the deck to read) since I walked in Friday evening.  I have no plans to go anywhere today either.  I am SO loving this uneventful weekend.

Yesterday, I cleaned my apartment from one end to the other.  Dusting, dry-mopping the floors, washing the bathroom and kitchen floors, damp-mopping the wood flo0rs, vacuuming the rugs, etc.  I spent about 3 hours in all, then sat down to have some lunch.  The rest of the day was spent with my nose in magazines and books.  It was lovely.

Today, I need to write an essay for my memoir group, which meets at the library tomorrow.    Not sure what I'm going to write about yet.  I read Chapter 5 in Turning Memories Into Memoirs, but nothing resonated with me.  I'm going to sit with my personal stuff this morning and see what comes up.

The weather, which has been in the 90's and humid for the better part of 2 weeks, took a dramatic drop over the weekend.  The outside thermometer barely registered 60 yesterday morning.  I actually shut all of the windows because my nose and feet were cold.  It warmed up some during the day, but we still had a wonderful breeze and no humidity.  New England weather...if you don't like it, just wait a minute. :)

After work on Friday, Linda and I went to Leominster.  I needed to go to Michael's to buy some sterling silver toggles for 3 bracelets, then we were going to Applebee's for dinner.   Somewhere in the middle of that, we went to Petco.  Linda is a big fan of animals.  Me?  Not so much.  She has 2 dogs, 3 cats and a bird.  The reason for our stop though, was so she could buy a new betta fish.  We were looking at the 2 dozen or so they had to offer when she picked up a pretty blue and red crowntail betta.  Not wanting to lose it to another customer, I told her I'd hold it while she looked around some more.  Before I had a chance to register what was going on, I became the proud owner of the blue and red crowntail!   Most betta fish were under $3.  Except, of course, the crowntails.  Those  were $7.  And, then there's fish food.  And a home.  And some decorations.    All in all, it probably cost me about $25.  The good thing is, it doesn't have to go to the vet, it won't shed, wrap itself around my legs or bark, and it couldn't be any less expensive to feed.  The container of food I bought will probably last waaay longer than the fish.  They are tiny little pellets...about the size of the head of a common pin...and you only give them 3 or 4 a day.

So, anyway...I now have a "pet".  It's not a very entertaining pet, but that's okay.  The red and blue of his (yes, it's a male betta) tail looks deep purple when he moves through the water.  Right now, he's living in a round "fish bowl" with some colorful stones on the bottom.  A much bigger home than I found him in, that's for sure.  I am concerned about oxygenating the water, so I may buy a small plant or 2 this week. 

I was telling my son about him and the fish my friend's daughter just won, whom she named "Leonardo Da Fishy".  We both chuckled at how clever she was.  I said I wanted to come up with a clever name for my fish too, and Den said..."How about Huck Finn"? :)  Perfect...  combines my love of books and cleverly includes a fish part.   Huck seems fine in his new home and Emma will be so pleased that I finally have a "pet".  She thinks I;m lonely.  If she only knew. :)

Oh, happy day!!  I just saw Dawn's 3 kids (her NY daughter has been here most of the summer) walk across the deck in their beach clothes, carrying towels.  Could I possibly be fortuate enough to have them all gone for the entire day????  I can still hear her walking around upstairs.  I hope she's going too, but if not, at least she's less noisy than all of the kids.  Last evening, I wanted to put my fist through the ceiling.  Spent most of the day with my iPod blasting in my ears to drown out the stomping, banging, yelling.  Ugh...

Anyway, looks like she got both of the girls hair cut to shoulder length "bobs".  Looks cute.

I need to jump into the shower and put on some clean happy pants and a big t-shirt.  Today is a reading, writing, jewelry making day and I need to get started.  It's 9:00 a.m. already!

Peace,

Kay

A little bit about a lot of nothing...

Thursday

August 9, 2007

Hi,

The Birthday Celebration brought about 15,000 people to our little event.  I think I sold tickets for the jump house and rock wall to 14,999 of them. :)  Seriously, I sold a lotta tickets to a pretty steady stream of harried parents wondering when they were going to be able to close their wallets.

Balloons (free), face painting (free), glow sticks sold by the Cub Scouts (who were at the college at the crack of dawn the next morning, cleaning up!), and a clown named Bette Oops rounded out the activities up my way.  We were stationed about 1/4 mile away from the bathrooms and food.  :(  Luckily, I knew how to get into one of the school buildings near where we were because the classroom I teach my journal classes is in there.  Found a bathroom lickity split.  With a bladder the size of a walnut these days, I can't be standing in line for an hour to use one of Scotty's Potties.

Tammy came early and offered to get me some food.  I gave her my coupon (volunteers ate free) and said to just get whatever they were offering.  I certainly didn't expect goumet food, but yowza... a not quite done hamburger and limp fries.  I felt bad that they had to wait in that long Long LONG line for bad food.

I missed most of Tim LaRoche's show, but he had a good crowd around the stage and lots of kids dancing in the grass.  Tammy got a great photo of him with Sam and Emma.

The fireworks, however, were awesome...especially the finale.   Lots of white and silver, with the occasional red and blue starburst to start off with, then a riot of color and sound to finish the night off.  Much ooooohing and aaaaaaaahing, whooping and applause.  A good night for the city and the hospital.

I finally got the beads I ordered to make 3 "mother's" bracelets for a co-worker.  Got 2 of them done last night and will finish the last tonight so I can bring them to her tomorrow.  I like the way they are coming out...very sparkly and bright.  Lots of sterling silver and Swarovski crystals.  I might have to make one for myself as a "sample" for my sale table in November and see if I can drum up some business just before Christmas.  :)

Linda and I went to the movies on Tuesday to see Hairspray.  Very cute....good moral story.  John Travolta was funny as a "big" woman.  Brittany Snow from American Dreams, Michelle Pfeiffer, Christopher Walken...and a handful of cute boys.  It's rated G, so if you've got some pre-teen girls around the house, have them some money and send them to the theater this weekend.

We had book club at Carol's last night.  Read The Beans of Egypt, Maine.  Not a favorable response from the group, but it was a lively discussion.  Next month, The Town That Forgot How to Breathe.

The weather has been hot and humid for almost 2 weeks.  It's my least favorite weather, so needless to say, I've not be a happy camper.  Last night, the rain brought a little relief from the humidity.  I can't wait til October gets here. :)

I have the whole weekend to myself!  No company, no obligations.  I REALLY need to do a good cleaning, so will spend either Saturday or Sunday doing that.  Then, I'd like to go shopping for a few new things to wear to work.  Since I enjoy clothes shopping about as much as I enjoy humid weather, I'll have to talk myself into it.  I really need some new work clothes.

Oh, I finally braved the scale although I was afraid to get near it after the weekend (burgers, fries, chinese food....sigh).  Got on it yesterday and it said -1.2 lbs.  :)

Peace,

Kay

Celebration...

Friday

August 3, 2007

Hi,

In the shadow of the recent horrific event in Minneapolis this week, Heywood will be celebrating it's 100th birthday in conjuction with the city's Summer Celebration tomorrow.

Our family had a bit of a scare because 4 relatives, traveling across country on motorcycles, were in Minneapolis when the bridge collapsed.  What are the odds?  They are fine...were on the other side of town (at the Mall of America) and hadn't been on the bridge at all.

Anyway, I have volunteered to sell tickets to the Rock Climbing Wall and Jump House, so plan to be pretty busy with that from 4-9 or so.  Once the sun goes down, those events will close.  In addition to those things, there will be face painting and balloons and Heywood "characters" :) dressed in cartoon character costumes (I understand Sponge Bob will be present :), as well as fireworks to top off the night.  I haven't seen "Sponge Bob" since I told him to take a hike about 6 years ago.  Oh, wait... This is a completely DIFFERENT Sponge Bob.

The main event is Tim LaRoche, local boy turned Nashville.  Following in his dad's musical footsteps, Tim has become a local legend, even if Nashville hasn't signed him on for a million dollar record deal yet.  He's back in our neck of the woods and we're glad to have him at our birthday party.

Tam and the kids will be here for the event and a baby shower to be held on Sunday.  I'll have the kids for the afternoon and it's supposed to be scorching hot this weekend, so I think I'll see if there's anything at the theater we can cool off with for a couple of hours.

The last 2 days at work have been total hell.  I will be glad when 4:30 rolls around and I can get out of here.

I've been going to the gym even though it's been so damned hot and humid this week.  Haven't taken any classes...just getting on a treadmill for an hour.  And...I've been following a Weight Watcher program, even though I didn't join.  I have all of the information from a previous venture in that direction, and 2 friends who are currently enrolled that keep me up to date with the newest and grooviest stuff.  I've felt better than I have in awhile and have lost a couple more pounds.  The wake up call, of course, is when you take a look at the nutrition labels of your fav foods and figure out your WW points.  Well...needless to say, more fruits and veggies on the plate these days.  It's all good.

Well, I see my salad dish is empty, which means it's time for me to get back to the grind.  Ugh... Come on, 4:30!

Peace,

Kay

Some Things I Know For Sure...

Wednesday

August 1, 2007

Hi,

Wow...July flew by!  I have been so busy that I haven't spent much time writing.  Since I can't possibly remember all that's been going on, I guess I'll just write whatever is in my head. :)

I was thinking about "stuff" this morning as I got ready for work and a couple of things came to me that I know are truths about my life. 

I know that blood is thicker than water.  Because of the size of my family and the fact that the younger generations have spread themselves out across the continent, there are a handful that I really don't know all that well...or that I haven't seen in many years.  But, I know that if I were in trouble, I could count on them to help in some way and vice versa. 

I know that when I don't get enough downtime, I get irritable.  Unlike the social butterflies of the world, I recharge in solitude.  Reading, beading, writing, sitting in nature.  Sure, I enjoy the occasional night out on the town, but it drains me.  I need to make sure that I give myself this time.

I know that when I exercise consistantly, I lose weight and that when I take too many days off from the gym, I gain it back.  I need to make a better effort to get some kind of exercise every day, even if I can't make it to they gym in the evening.  I have DVD's and videos that I can do at home any time of the day or night.  When I can't get to the gym, exercising in my living room has to be my other option.

I know that I am aging and that I don't like it one damned bit.  I detest what I see, but I really want to find the place where I can just accept that it is what it is and be more gentle with myself.  I can't reverse the clock.  This poem, from Susan Albe's "75 Poems on Retirement, is a good example of how I feel (and what I'd like to believe).

Brooding Over the Body
We are not our bodies, I tell my friend
because we’re middle-aged,
chafing at its insolent betrayal—
one day, desire
Quickening the pulse
like moths skittering to light,
the next,
you bend to tie your shoes
and can’t breathe,
heart
slapping at your windpipe
like a trout trapped in a creel.
You’d swear some nights
a raven hunches in your ribcage
nipping nerve ends,
scratching at your gullet.
In its harsh and crooked way,
it calls you
from dream-freighted sleep
to walk the floor and wonder
how this scavenger got in.
I tell her we are spirit, will,
the sum of soul and wit.
Yet this morning at the mirror,
looking at the slack moon-
crescents of my breasts,
the widening span of hips
and thickening waist,
I wondered at how quickly
the body pulls us down, heavy
with its own warm brine and tides.
No matter that the girl in me
still wants to sprint
up stairs, love till dawn,
and glut on cheese and cream.
This flesh that loosened me
limits me.
In the too-bright bathroom light,
I splay my starfish hands,
the rambling veins now
less like fine-penned blueprints
and more like bare-branched trees.
Still, my wrists, still
slender as a girl’s.

Peace,

Kay